Reflections on Gratitude, Part II

It had been nearly five hours.  We had just a few moments to spare, but confident of crossing the finish line before our 4 hour and 55 minute deadline, we had slackened to a walk, allowing our horses to slow their respiration and pulse in preparation for the check- in to come.  As the finish line neared, I felt a tightness developing in my chest as I became almost choked up with pride for my horse.  And as we crossed the bridge bringing us back to the B barn at GMHA, and the volunteers handed us our time in slips, I bit back a few tears.  She had done it.  Lee had finished her first 25 mile ride.  WE had finished OUR first 25 mile ride.  Getting to this point had been such a long, long road—literally and figuratively—that I was almost lost for words.

Lee after completing her first 25 mile ride.
Lee after completing her first 25 mile ride.

 

In the Beginning

 

From day one, Lee has never been easy.  I met her when she was six years old.  She had been sent to live for the winter at the dressage farm where I was then employed.  Her owner was quite busy juggling a young son, running her own business and commuting from Massachusetts, and so Lee stood around more than she worked.  Somehow I was asked, or offered, to ride her a few days a week.   She was quite green on many levels, and also quite quirky, which just enhanced the greenness.  Here is a basic list of Lee’s early challenges:

 

I had to longe her each and every time before I rode—or else.  I had to mount her from the ground, because she wouldn’t go near the mounting block.  She didn’t cross tie at first, and even after she learned, for the longest time if I left her alone for even a second to run to the tack room, I would hear the crack and thump which indicated that she had broken her ties or the halter and run off.  She also wouldn’t let you within fifteen feet of her with clippers of any kind, and even if you were clipping someone else, that was still cause to run away.  Brooms were also problematic—whether in use, being carried past, or simply leaning against the wall. (Blogger’s Note:  None of the above issues are issues anymore, except the clippers.  That is a still a “no go”.  You simply must learn to pick your battles).

 

Lee’s owner had left her ‘dressage bridle’, since Lee was at the dressage barn, meaning simply that it had a flash noseband.  But when her mouth was held shut, Lee just would refuse to move at all.  So off came the flash; I have never used one on her again.

LeeandWorldly
My former dressage mount Worldly, on left, and Lee.

 

Even given these quirks, we began to slowly make progress in terms reinforcing the basics.  One day, Lee’s owner was chatting with the farm owner,  and she said, “maybe Chris would like to compete Lee next summer.”  The farm owner’s response?  “In what?” (probably accompanied by a roll of the eye).  And for Lee, that has always been the $10,000 question.

 

Today, we shall be Eventers

 

Given that Lee is ¾ Thoroughbred, by the stallion Loyal Pal, and out of a part Holsteiner mare named Lakshmi who herself competed in hunters and eventing, and at the time I still considered myself primarily an event rider, my first thought was that Lee would make a wonderful event horse.  She is built in a very Thoroughbred-y manner, with a low neck, slight but solid frame and a hind end built for engagement.   She also has an excellent gallop.  In fact, one of the best gallops I have ever seen from her was the day she dumped me off into a puddle of icy water behind the UNH Equine Center, then spun and went galloping back to the main barn, where she broke through someone else’s crosstie, fell in the aisle, slid across the floor into the boarder’s tack room door, got up, ran back down the aisle and was finally caught heading towards Main Street and campus.  While all this was happening, I still sat there in the mud and slush, thinking to myself, “my, what a beautiful gallop she has.  She will make a great cross country horse.”  This, before I entertained some less charitable thoughts about her recent behavior.

 

So even though she was green and a bit looky (“she is funny about fill under the fences”, said her now former owner, “but it gets better when the jumps are bigger”), I figured with enough exposure she would come around, right?

 

Not so much.

 

I hacked Lee and hunter paced her.  I jumped her over little jumps in the ring.  But when it came to cross country, she was absolutely not interested.  She resolutely refused to jump anything which remotely resembled a cross country fence (coop, roll top, log, you name it). I remember riding on the UNH cross country course nearly ten years ago with the captain of my riding team mounted on a steady eddy type veteran, trying to use him as a lead for Lee to jump a very basic log.  After umpteen refusals, my student looked at me with a sad expression and said, “I just don’t think she is going to jump it”.

 

Lee and her friend Izzy go hunter pacing in 2010.
Lee and her friend Izzy go hunter pacing in 2010.

I did eventually (read, five or more years after the early attempts) get Lee to follow another horse over a few logs on a pace event, and got her to jump a few small logs on the UNH course independently.  And she has always been willing to go into water and up and down banks and drops (remember that I said she was quirky?)  Unfortunately, to be an event horse, this just wasn’t going to cut the mustard.

 

But that was okay, because Lee was so speedy and cat like, and turned so quickly, perhaps she had a more appropriate niche—the jumper ring.  I really like doing jumpers and thought it would be fun to have a handy and quick horse.  So that is where we quickly shifted our focus.

 

Perhaps Show Jumpers?

 

Monday, February 22, 2010

Hi Chris

 Just a quick note to be sure you are ok? We all have those days!—MKB

 

I still have this email in my inbox.  It is from the organizer of a series of local winter schooling jumper shows that I have frequently attended, and it is in reference to the day I fell off not once but twice at the same show.  The first fall, if I recall correctly, was the result of a spook at a faux stone wall placed under a tiny (2’3”) vertical.  The second one came later, when my horse decided to refuse an oxer— after she had already taken off.  She and I landed in somewhere in the middle of the spread, but we did not land together. It was a low moment.  I thought the email was an incredibly kind and considerate gesture from one rider to another.

 

Lee and I have attended more clinics together than I have with any other horse, ever.  I have jumped her with Nona Garson, Linda Allen, Amy Barrington, Greg Best, Michael Page, Joe Forest and probably other luminaries whom I am forgetting about.  The clinic setting is really her happy place, because you have plenty of opportunity to check out the fences before being asked to jump them, to warm up in the arena where you are expected to perform and if you spook at something, you get another chance to make it right.

 

Lee and I with Nona Garson, 2006.
Lee and I with Nona Garson, 2006.

This of course is NOT the case in the jumper ring.  I learned quickly that skipping the schooling warm up was simply not an option.  And if some condition of the ring changed in between schooling and my round (i.e., they brought out a digital timer), that could be a real deal breaker.
As I had expected, Lee was quick and cat like.  She turned well and moved up well.  Unfortunately, she was just as quick to chicken out and stop short, even over a fence which she had already jumped.  There really was no rhyme or reason.  It seemed like with Lee, you either won or you were eliminated.  There was no in between.

 

Schooling, 2010.
Schooling, 2010.

I spent an inordinate amount of time working with Lee over fences before admitting defeat.  I know others would have stopped sooner, and perhaps I should have too, but I will say that looking back at those years I learned some lessons along the way that I am not sure I would have been ready to learn at other points in my career.

 

For example….

 

Greg Best was one of my favorite clinicians to work with.  He is patient and kind, never runs on time, and spends as much focus as is needed to get to wherever you need to get to with a given horse in a session.  I had entered Lee in the three foot group; the morning of day one, she had a little bit of a bellyache, prompting a visit from the vet and causing me to pull a UNH school horse into service.  I had only ridden that horse once, the day we tried him out for the program, but Windsor was experienced and well-schooled and rose to the occasion admirably.  While I was grateful to have a backup come available, I was disappointed to not be able to bring my own horse.  When she was cleared by the vet to go to days two and three of the clinic, I was quite relieved.

 

I have always ridden Lee in a plain cavesson noseband, and a basic snaffle bit.  She is difficult in the connection, and seems to go best in a bit with solid rings.  At that time, I had her in a single jointed Baucher snaffle.  Many equestrians erroneously assume that the Baucher has leverage, because it has rings which attach to the cheekpieces, with a separate ring for your rein.  However, what the unique cheekpiece attachment does is in effect to lift the bit higher in the corners of the mouth, thereby causing it to be more stable.  It was the best fit I had found for her and she was fairly willing to go to it.

 

Greg watched me warm up Lee, along with the rest of the group.  He doesn’t say much during the warm up, just observes and takes in what he sees.  I couldn’t have ridden more than ten minutes before he called me over to ask about my bit.

 

Lee warming up at clinic with Greg Best, July 2010
Lee warming up at clinic with Greg Best, July 2010

Now, I had by this time noticed that Greg is a believer in riding in the mildest bit possible.  He had already taken away a plethora of twists, gags and elevators from other clinic participants, and I had been feeling pretty good about my Baucher as being a mild enough snaffle.

 

“I think you have too much bit,” says Greg.

 

Well, darn. Now what?  Greg travels with a bag that I can only compare to that of Mary Poppins—it is a nondescript, small duffle, faded from hour upon hour of sitting in sunny arenas.  But when you open it up, it seems to magically contain bits, spurs, straps, doohickeys and all other manner of tools that can modify tack.  From the depths of the bag, he pulled out a loop of leather.  He called it a sidepull; I have also learned that this piece of equipment can be called a non-mechanical hackamore.  Simply put, you remove your horse’s bit and noseband and attach the cheekpieces instead to two rings on the sides of the leather loop; your reins attach to two rings which are positioned just under the jawbones.  It seemed like it was just one step up from riding in a halter and leadrope.  I said as much to Greg.

 

“Yes, basically,” he shrugged.

 

With Greg Best.  You can see Lee is in the sidepull here.
With Greg Best. You can see Lee is in the sidepull here.

And that was how I rode Lee for nearly five hours over two days in the clinic.  The sidepull absorbed any defect in my release or timing, and Lee became more and more freely forward under its influence.  I had no trouble at all stopping or steering her.  She was so much happier without a bit.

 

She was again expressing her preferences in tack, if I had only known to listen.

 

Another lesson…

 

Lee’s swan song as a jumping horse came at a clinic with eventer Amy Barrington.  I have ridden with Amy several times; she is a creative instructor and sets up exercises and courses which you don’t think you can possibly jump—but then she breaks it all down into pieces and the next thing you know you have gone and jumped it all.  At this clinic, we jumped a skinny one stride, constructed out of half a wooden coop placed on top of half a brick wall, with a wing on one side.  Never in a million years did I think Lee would go near something that odd looking, never mind go over it.

 

Piece by piece, we put the course together.  And then we did the whole thing—all the oxers, all the odd combinations and spooky fences, all at 3’-3’3”, without a single refusal.  It was like nirvana.  But I had had to ride really really hard, wear really big spurs and dig in to the bottom of my bucket of grit to get it done.
And I knew that if I had to ride that hard to get the job done, the horse probably wasn’t meant to do it.

 

Amy seconded my thoughts, saying, “You might be able to get her through this….but you might not.  She sure is hard.”

 

Around this time, I was completing the USDF “L” judge’s training program, and at my final exam at Poplar Place in Georgia, the most ADORABLE little dark bay mare did some simply wonderful tests at the First Level Championships.  “Hmm…”, I thought. “That horse moves and is built a lot like Lee.  Maybe I should make her a dressage horse….”

 

So we put away the jumping tack and put on a dressage saddle.  Now THIS would really be her niche, right?

 

Well….

 

Then Dressage, For Sure

 

Overall, I feel quite competent in the dressage arena.  I can put most horses together to a level appropriate for their training fairly efficiently and I think I have a decent eye for problems from the ground.  However, riding Lee on the flat made me feel like I knew nothing—not one thing—about how to put a horse On The Bit.  It was so humbling.  Even though my main focus for Lee had been as a jumping horse, I also had been steadily working with her dressage training all along the way.  I had shown her lightly in the dressage arena; she scored a 65% at her first rated show at Training Level, and had also gone to many local schooling shows, with results ranging from $( % (look up the numbers on your computer) to upper 60’s at Training and First Level.

Lee at the Wentworth schooling show in 2010.  Photo Credit to Mystical Photography, used here with permission.
Lee at the Wentworth schooling show in 2010. Photo Credit to Mystical Photography, used here with permission.

 

I began looking for a dressage instructor who would “get” this quirky horse.  My first choice was someone who suggested riding her in draw reins—no thank you.  I continued to work on my own before connecting with Paulien Alberts. Paulien is based in Holland (of course, why would it be someone local?) and she did a series of clinics in southern Maine geared towards para-dressage riders.  The same out of the box thinking that made her successful with equestrians with physical challenges also made her successful for Lee.  She was also willing to get on and ride my horse—something no one else had been willing to do.  With Paulien on board, I could really see the “dancer” side of Lee come out.  It was so much fun.

 

While the sessions with Paulien helped us to develop, I continued to look for someone closer to home to work with more regularly.  For about a year, I worked with another trainer who had a European background, but it became clear that her enthusiasm for working with Lee quickly had waned and I moved on.  I found the most success with another travelling clinician, Verne Batchelder.  Like Paulien, Verne understood that this horse was unique and was willing to work with us “as is”.  He also was willing to ride her, which I think speaks volumes.  It is easy to look at Lee and think that she is a simple ride and that it is the pilot who prevents her from achieving her full dressage-y potential. But anyone who has gotten on and actually tried to correctly connect her quickly realizes that she is not that simple at all.  It has been a humbling experience to work with a horse that is so hard to put together.  And I know that others have judged me for it—both in terms of, “why are you wasting your time” and “why can’t you do a better job”?  But their judgments are their problem, not mine.  What Lee has taught me is that while the rider is OFTEN the cause of the horse’s problems, they are not always the WHOLE cause of them, and until you have personally sat on a horse and felt what is going on for yourself, you cannot KNOW what is going on.  So perhaps don’t be so quick to judge others.

 

Looking dressage-y at the beach in 2008.
Looking dressage-y at the beach in 2008.

Showing Lee in dressage was easier than showing her over fences, but her performance could be as inconsistent.  I took her to the NEDA Spring Show, and she had an absolute meltdown in the busy atmosphere of the Marshfield Fairgrounds (hence the $(% score that is on her record).  I scratched from my classes on day two and just took her home.  However, the most colorful showing experience I had came at the GMHA dressage show in June of the same year.

 

It was my birthday weekend, and I travelled to Vermont with my two pugs, Lee, and my sometimes trusty maroon pick up (mercifully now retired and working at a camp somewhere).   I was looking forward to a pleasant weekend of good weather, to meet up with some friends, and to ride four Training level dressage tests.

 

As was my routine, I rode Lee around upon arrival, and although alert, she seemed more relaxed than she had been at the NEDA show.   I personally feel that the sprawling layout there is quite horse friendly and have found most of my mounts to be at ease at GMHA.  Three of my four tests were scheduled for the Upwey ring, so I concentrated my schooling in that area and then hacked around the rest of the grounds.
The next day, I headed out to Upwey to warm up for the first test.  Overnight, a herd of black and white Holstein dairy cows must have been moved to a new field, because this morning, they were all hanging out directly behind the judge’s booth of my arena.  As in, judge’s booth, narrow Vermont road, large herd of cows.  They seemed to be taking in the warm up, rings, and general increased level of activity with a sort of detached bovine disinterest.

 

Lee took one look at those cows and went into full on “survival” mode.  She would go nowhere near that end of the warm up, even in hand, and actually flipped her tail up, Arabian style, while velociraptor-snorting in their direction.  Not one other horse in the warmup was having this sort of reaction.  Excellent.

 

I valiantly carried on and when the time came, tried to ride our test.  Lee would go no closer to the judge’s booth than “X”, and at one point was cantering backwards away from the cows.  I didn’t even know horses could do that.  After what I would consider a heroic effort to create some sort of Dressage in my horse, I saluted the judge and asked to be excused.   She leaned out of the booth.
“I think you are very brave!” she yelled out.

 

Upon returning to stabling, I was beyond frustrated.  How many more excuses could I give this animal?  I mean, all I wanted her to do was walk trot and canter in the ring with her head down.  Seriously, was this too much to ask?  Had I not been patient enough?

 

While glowering in my stall, a friend and her daughter stopped by to see how my ride had gone.  One look at my stormy expression said it all.  “You know, J.K. has a cowboy with her,” said my friend.  “He hacks all of her horses around and gets them over stuff like that.  Do you know her?  You should go ask if he would ride Lee.”

 

Photo by Mystical Photography and used here with permission.
Photo by Mystical Photography and used here with permission.

I knew J.K. by reputation only, and knew she had serious FEI horses that went well in the ring.  I also knew I had never, ever, not one time, paid someone to ride my horse for me when they were being bad.  It seemed like an admission of failure.  But at that point, after everything I had gone through with Lee, I really, really just wanted to ride one dressage test in the ring like a normal horse.  So I went to find J.K.

 

“Hello, we haven’t met,” I said.  “My name is Chris, and I work at UNH Equine Program,” (figuring I would throw that in there for good measure).  “I hear you have a cowboy with you.”

 

“Oh, I DO have a cowboy with me!” J.K. enthusiastically responded.

 

“Could I borrow him for a few minutes?”

 

So I was introduced to her cowboy, whose actual name I don’t even remember, and then introduced the cowboy to Lee.  I now had quite a posse of friends and acquaintances following the saga of “Lee and the Cows in Upwey”, and this posse joined us as I sent Lee and her new cowboy friend towards the mounting block.  He was a biggish fellow—not heavy in an out of shape way, just large like a muscled man can be, and he wore full chaps,  big spurs, and a helmet only under duress as it was the GMHA policy.  He mounted my petite, 15+ hand mare, and gave her a squeeze.  She promptly tried to go straight up.  He booted her forward, in a totally appropriate way, and she moved forward.  “That might be the end of it,” whispered one of the posse members.
“Oh, it better not be the end of it,” I growled.  And I knew it wouldn’t be, because she would never give up that quickly.

The cowboy brought Lee to the warmup, and starting at the end furthest away from the cows, who I am pretty sure were now hanging out at the road side edge of their field just to taunt the horses, began to play with Lee in her basic gaits.  He slowly and steadily made his way down to the end of the warm up closest to the cows, where he worked her some more.  He also let her stand and look, and to blow some more like a velociraptor.  She did become slightly more relaxed—but that wasn’t saying too much.  After about thirty minutes or so, he rode back over to me.

 

“Well, I don’t think you’ll be roping cows off of this one,” he drawled in his British accent.

 

Apparently horses besides my own were having enough problems with the bovine residents that the show management had decided to open up the Upwey arena for schooling that night.  I scratched from my afternoon test and made arrangements for the cowboy to ride Lee again during the schooling time.  The posse was now double in size, and people had brought alcoholic drinks.  They were ready to be entertained.

 

Lee demonstrated her considerable athletic prowess and made me appreciate that the money I was paying the cowboy was well spent.  She leapt, ran sideways and backwards and nearly took out the perimeter string.  Again, the cowboy was patient yet firm, and his chief attribute was his ability to sit his hefty self squarely in the saddle no matter where the horse went underneath him.  Again, Lee got better, but there was no way I was going to be able to go down centerline with her with cows anywhere near the judge’s booth.

 

So I scratched yet another test, the morning test for day two, but resolved that I WOULD ride my last test, scheduled for the Walker Ring— all the way across the grounds from the cows and Upwey.  The cowboy agreed to be on standby, just in case.

 

In preparation, I took Lee over and walked her all over the area near Walker (totally cow free) and let her graze there for what seemed like hours.  When our scheduled time came, we executed what for us was a near perfect test—she scored a 63% and placed 3rd, but that ribbon may as well have been a gold medal for all that blood, sweat and tears that went into it.
I began to think my horse was autistic.  It seemed like she needed a completely steady, stable and predictable environment to perform her best, without any of those pesky distractions or interferences common in the real world.  I showed her several more times in recognized dressage competition, but there was always that unpredictability to contend with.  I decided that maybe I should focus more on training and clinics with her, and less on showing.

 

Lee developed to the point where she was able to do most Second and some Third Level movements—but movements only.  She does not carry herself in quite enough collection and lacks the quality of connection and throughness required at these levels.  Verne understands that, and was willing to work on improving the quality of the connection through the use of movements, instead of drilling endlessly on a 20 meter circle trying to make the connection better.  I have always been pleased with the progress that Lee ended up making, but I was also painfully aware that I was still probably trying to shove a square peg into a round hole.

 

Some friends suggested that I sell Lee.  “You really have tried and tried with this horse…maybe it is time to move on?”  I know they meant well.  But in spite of all the ups and downs, I still liked riding the horse—maybe because each step forward was so hard won.  I also had real worries about what would happen to such a quirky horse on the open market.

 

During all of this, I have always done random things with Lee that you wouldn’t think she would like doing.  She has been to the beach several times.  I have ridden her while the ROTC students practiced helicopter training across the street from our facility.  I have ridden her under the lights in the outdoor at night.  She is foot perfect at IHSA flat practice and shows, even with a full set of bleachers and other horses acting naughty around her.  She doesn’t flinch with Durham launches its fireworks directly across the street from our facility.   But I still struggled to figure out what this horse truly wanted to do.  What was her niche?  They all have one….I just had to find it.

 LeeBeach2008

But really…Competitive Trail?!

 

In 2013, Denny Emerson began really talking up an event called GMHA Distance Days on his Facebook page.  The premier event of the weekend was the three day long 100 mile ride, but divisions were offered with as few as just ten miles required.  A friend of mine was actively conditioning her mare for a novice level three day, and for some reason, I got a little caught up in the excitement and decided that perhaps Lee and I could do the ten mile ride with her.

Lee and her friend Ariat at GMHA Distance Days
Lee and her friend Ariat at GMHA Distance Days, 2013

To be quite honest, I would say that any horse who is ridden regularly (let’s say five to six days per week, for an hour or more per day of walk, trot and canter) should be able to handle a distance as short as ten miles without too much fuss.  But being diligent, my friend and I took our mares to several parks and local trail systems to work on their “distance” conditioning.

About a week or so before the big event, we took the mares to the local Rockingham Recreational Trail for one final long trot outing.  The trail is a former railroad, and it is flat, has decent footing, and stretches all the way from the Newfields/Newmarket line to Manchester, NH, if you are brave enough to cross a few very busy roads (for the record, I am not that brave).  Branching off of the rail trail are several other trail networks, mostly maintained by local conservation organizations, all open to non-motorized users, including horseback riders.  Having gone back and forth along the main trail several times, on this visit we decided to explore one of these side trails.  This proved to be the start of an unexpected adventure.

It became clear that these side trails were less heavily used than the main rail trail, and there were areas in which the brush and branches became quite a bit narrower.  We explored several paths, most of which led to dead ends or areas which were too wooded to take the horses.  We passed along areas where we were completely in forest and areas which lead us through meadow or formerly logged terrain.  It was after passing through one of these more open areas that my friend’s horse began stomping her hind feet in an odd manner, almost like she was kicking out at Lee.  Almost immediately, Lee started acting oddly, too, and I looked down to see a wasp sticking out of her neck.  Quickly assessing the situation, I squished the wasp and yelled, ‘wasps, GO NOW!!!”

We cantered away as fast as was possible, and amazingly, neither of us was stung ourselves and our mares declined to buck us off.  Unfortunately, the only way we knew how to get back to the main trail meant returning through the same area.  After catching our collective breath for a few moments, we turned and moved swiftly through the “wasp” area.  Neither of us ever saw the nest, but it must have been a ground hive, and a few more stings were acquired going back through that section of trail.

Looking forward.
Looking forward.

Deciding that we had had enough adventure “off roading”, we returned to the main rail trail and continued our progress towards Epping—away from our trailers, which were at the start of the trail in Newfields.  After a few minutes, Lee started flipping her head somewhat violently, almost yanking the reins from my hands and reaching to scratch her nose on her leg.  The behavior increased in intensity and persistence, and I realized that she had developed a few hives around the area where I had pulled out the wasp.

I wasn’t too concerned, because the hives seemed to be just around the one area and that seemed to be a logical reaction to a sting.  But soon Lee’s entire demeanor became more frantic, more frazzled, and I asked my friend if we could turn around to head back to the trailers—some 5.5 miles away.  When my friend turned, she took one look at Lee and I could see by her face that things weren’t good.  The hives had spread and increased in size and thickness—almost before your eyes.  I vaulted off, and began pulling off tack.  Lee’s entire body was quickly consumed—her major leg joints looked like basketballs, her lips puffed like an actress after Botox, and not one square inch of her body was left alone.  Terrifyingly, her outer nostrils had also begun to swell.  She was clearly in distress, and here we were, miles from our trailers, in the woods, somewhere between Newfields and Epping.

Denny and Roxie, Lee and I after completing the Hartland Riding Club ride in June.
Denny and Roxie, Lee and I after completing the Hartland Riding Club ride in June 2014.

My friend called our vet.  We couldn’t even tell her what town we were in.  I led Lee, carrying my saddle, to a crossing where the rail trail came close to a road.  Some bicyclists passed by and were able to identify the route we were on, and we passed the info along to the vet’s service.  And then we stood and waited.

I can’t remember ever feeling so powerless, so helpless and so scared for my horse.  After what seemed like an eternity, our vet, Dr. Monika Calitri of Seacoast Equine, arrived.  She had been out jogging, and hadn’t even taken the time to change out of her running clothes.  She quickly got Lee started on some strong anti-inflammatories and reassured me that as scary as she looked, my horse would probably be okay.

While the medication clearly brought Lee prompt relief, she still was a lumpy, swollen mess and she was in no condition to be ridden back to the trail head.  Dr. Calitri, bless her, called her partner and asked him to bring her own personal truck and trailer, still hitched from a show the day before.  Once he arrived, we loaded both horses and they took us back to the trail head.  What service, what kindness, and I am grateful to this day for her compassion towards my horse.

In spite of this setback, we were able to compete at the ten mile ride and had an amazing time.  The people were so open, friendly and welcoming.  I loved the chance to be out on the trail and to see areas of the country that I would not have otherwise accessed.  I had the notion that this was perhaps something I wanted to do more of.

In spending the summer of 2014 with Denny (see The Tamarack Chronicles, Vol I- VI), I was able to spend hours riding out on the hilly trails around Tamarack.  Lee became fitter than she has ever been, and interestingly, the fitter she got, the less spooky she was.  Finally, she had become secure and confident.  I started riding her in an “s” curve hackamore, which makes it easier to allow for hydrating and eating on trail; but interestingly, she also became so much more willing to just “go”.  In the hackamore, she has had moments of being a little spooky or silly, and I have never felt even a little bit out of control.  I just don’t need the bit.  As she travels down the trail, her lower lip droops.  It is sort of adorable.

Crossing the finish line at GMHA Distance Days 2014, completing the 25 mile ride.
Crossing the finish line at GMHA Distance Days 2014, completing the 25 mile ride.

On trail, Lee is still Lee.  She still hates cows.  And for the most part, she won’t go first…but never say never, as towards the end of this summer, she has actually begun to willingly lead other horses on familiar trails.  She recently acted as babysitter for a green horse on a hack.  This could be a sign of the impending apocalypse—just as a heads up.

Crossing the finish line at our first 25 mile ride this August at GMHA caused me to feel so overwhelmed with pride and gratitude.  This horse really and truly gave me her everything on the trail, which was rocky, hilly and technical.  She readily kept up with a pair of experienced Arabians and quickly pulsed down to the appropriate parameters.  I realize that in the scheme of competitive trail, 25 miles is still just the beginning, but compared to anything the horse had done previously, it was far and beyond the best effort she had ever made—and I think she even had fun!

Lessons Learned

My years with Lee have really taught me so much about what it means to be a horseman.  In some ways, I feel like the more I have learned about horsemanship, the less I know.  Lee has been a humbling horse to work with, and though many have encouraged me to move her along, I am so glad that I have not done so.

I have always been a rider who adapted disciplines to the horse I had at hand, more or less.  In my quest to find a niche for Lee, I have had occasion to clinic with so many amazing horsemen and women, and their lessons have been important ones.  I have experimented with different types of equipment and approaches for training.  I have competed and schooled, travelled and stayed home.  I have literally ridden over mountains and across rivers.

Lee showing off her prize from Hartland.
Lee showing off her prize from Hartland.

Lee has taught me to listen to the horse.  And in her own way, she is predictably unpredictable.  Lee moonlights as an IHSA flat horse for the University of New Hampshire team, and she is probably the most consistent draw of the group.  At one practice, she carried our walk trot rider around the ring after she had been bucked off another horse.  The fall had been scary, the rider’s confidence severely shaken, and Lee just quietly moved along, in spite of the rider’s green aids.  I was so proud of her that day, even more proud than when she carried another rider to the reserve high point championship at our home show.

A rider from Colby Sawyer's IHSA team poses after riding Lee to win reserve high point rider.
A rider from Colby Sawyer’s IHSA team poses after riding Lee to win reserve high point rider.

I have enjoyed rides under stars and moonlit skies.

I have galloped down the beach.

So while Lee has never turned into an elite competitor, she is still an amazing animal, and I am so grateful that our paths have crossed.

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